It's all about me, Baby :)

HI WHATS YOUR AGE?

2010-12-02T17:03:00.003+08:00

I'm 18 :)

Ask me anything

Hi! You're Cute =)

2010-12-02T17:03:00.001+08:00

Hey, thanks :)

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hi whats your age ? :)

2010-11-30T17:13:00.001+08:00

18 :)

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MOVED

2010-11-29T10:41:00.000+08:00

Yeah, i've moved. to here.

http://onefourthreexoxo.wordpress.com/

so cya there :)

My Must-Have but Can't-Have

2010-11-15T10:14:00.003+08:00

THIS.

I so WANT this right now, but i checked the price and its a little too expensive. Not that i can't buy, but i have to get my priorities straight because i need the money for something else :(

Blog dead?

2010-11-04T15:25:00.003+08:00

Yeah, my blog isn't dead. It just moved to either my tumblr, or my personal online diary. My blog isn't dead, only this linksite is dead. So yes, wanna know me more? Gonna have to try harder ;) i'm tryna keep everything a little more secretive. Thanks.

Feeling useless.

2010-10-29T20:16:00.001+08:00

I need you. Yes, i need you.

Nobody, but you.

Y O U.

I feel like crying now.

Seriously.

Sick.

2010-10-29T19:54:00.002+08:00

Yes, i am sick. more sick than ever. I've just woke up and my head's throbbing so painfully like it is being hammered. I don't know what to do, i've eaten the medicine, got some sleep, but still i'm feelings so weak. And i'm hungry but i don't have the appetite to eat because my throat hurts like idk what. Current temperature is 37.7 degrees. At least it dropped from this morning.

It's getting worse, swallowing my saliva hurts a lot so imagine me eating something. Gahh, i want to get better! Please please please :( It stinks when all i do is fall asleep and woke up cold and with a major headache. Would someone care enough to switch brains with me for a day ? HEH.

Kaybye, imma try to drink more water.

MONDAY BLUES

2010-10-26T09:38:00.003+08:00

okay, yesterday have been the worst monday i've ever been through.

Start of the day with being a little late, getting accidentally banged on the shoulder by someone and to the stupid teacher scolding. WTF me and M.Y were discussing lo _|_ i'm just beginning to like her stupid lesson and she goes out and ruins it. i havent let it go, its super stupid! sigh, maybe i should learn to shut up and be stupid.

Went home, and out back to training. yes, training sucks. The one thing i realised about the guys in the team is that they sorta only care when i get high scores. And when i was down, yep, they didn't bother. All the hi-5's, one of them even said "You don't have to bother to Hi-5 her" in a playful way i guess, but somehow it pierced. I mean i was feeling really down, and all they do is add more salt to a wound. Only Kevin i suppose is able to life my burden up a little. I expected them to boost my strength, but they brought me down. Idk, i just felt ignored at that moment, and that hurt.

So off to pick up my sis and to go eat. I was thinking about a lot of stuff and when i tried to get in on the conversation, yes i was ignored once again. My older sis, yeah, she announce it sort of, and that got me sad i suppose. I started having tears in my eyes and then it fell. Idk, Monday really sucks for me. I feel most neglected and i'm the only one who knows.

Whatever, i know i'm not the best thing, i'm just average. I'm trying to live up to high expectations from my team, and sometimes i just can't do it okay? I'm just a girl. Average, and sometimes i play good, sometimes not. Sigh, oh yeah, i sprained my freaking wrist. Oh well, more reasons to hate mondays.

If Joey's father is John, then John is the _________________ of joey's father?? someone ask me this!!! hahaha.. what's your answer?=)

2010-10-16T23:28:00.001+08:00

NAME! :D

Ask me anything

what was your favorite movie?

2010-10-16T23:26:00.001+08:00

Hmm, hard to choose but it'll be the HARRY POTTER SERIES. I love them so much. Can't wait for Deathly Hallows :D

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How is your heart today?

2010-10-16T23:25:00.003+08:00

Normal, not broken and happy :)

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what's the status of your love life?

2010-10-16T23:25:00.001+08:00

Single. Aka taken by a celebrity who doesn't know i exist ;)

Ask me anything

CODY

2010-10-15T23:25:00.002+08:00

ouh, forgot to mention something : CODY SIMPSON FOLLOWED ME ON TWITTER ♥ Man i love him more and more ♥ Check out his songs everyone, Iyiyi and Summertime. Awesome songs, I love them. And he's CUTE.

yes, i picasa-ed that. hehe, obsessive much ? ♥

MOM's birthdayyy, 13 oct.

2010-10-15T22:11:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!

A year goes by, much love from me. Thanks for taking care of me, thanks for comforting me when my friends aren't here. I've grown up somehow but you still calls me childish and such cause i know deep down you don't want me to grow up right ? :p I'll always be here for you mom, love you so much ♥

After Mom finish work, we went to eat SEAFOOD. yums! we had:

Lemon Chicken
Baby Squid
Kailan
Sweet and Sour fish
Chilli Crab
Hot Plate Beancurd
Cereal Prawn.

My favourites! Yum max but i didn't eat the vege, heh. Me no likey, bleaghh. That night was awesome. When we reach home, it was ard 11. Wash up and stuff, then surprised her even more with the birthday cake i bought that morning. Ouh, me and my sis bought her this ex bag, and i'm broke now D: But oh well, anything for mom ♥

LOVE YOU!

Bowling Chalet

2010-10-10T17:02:00.004+08:00

This post is about the bowling chalet. Lol. okay, the first day we were there, I watch them play some WII games. Then we played a little bonding games. Then dinner at 5. After that at 7 we went to play captain ball at the field outside. hmm. Badminton after that, then we had the treasure hunt at night. After that wash up, and off to sleep.

I guess that's about it. Not much fun blogging about something that happened ages ago. But at least i'm trying to revive back my blog XD

Jon's Birthday

2010-10-10T16:52:00.002+08:00

Okay. It's time i update this blog. This post is for Jon who turned 21 on twenty-five Sept. He invited me to his chalet at Pasir Ris, Coasta Sands. Me and my sis went there, decided to buy him his present along the way. LOL i did not know what to buy for him. serious -.-

Anw, i missed him!! He's gone off to NS already, hence his Botak hair. haha i do miss his long hair ! Happy Birthday by the way! Anw, stupid pictures them blur, i need to get a digital camera soon!

♥

Do you like to dance? If so, what kind of dance do you appreciate?

2010-10-05T20:49:00.001+08:00

hmm i like to dance even if i'm not good at it XD I guess i appreciate every type of dance :)

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YO How are YOU!

2010-10-05T20:48:00.001+08:00

Hey, i'm fine, thanks for asking XD

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cookies!

2010-09-24T15:56:00.002+08:00

I have a sudden craving for cookies yesterday, so today i baked some :D it smells good and tastes very good! haha i love it max. yeah, today i'm just sitting at home. I thought i could go out and catch a movie with yazid but i have to do the fear factor proposal for registration. sighh. ouh well the weekends are here! saturday i'm going to Jon's birthday party ♥ he invited me. omgomgomg *faints* haha. and sunday to monday will be going chalet with my bowling team. i wanna have fun man! :) can't wait!

see that giant cookie in the middle ? yeah, THAT'S MINE! :D

SEG Hari Raya 2010 outing.

2010-09-24T14:44:00.006+08:00

okay, on wednesday, me and a few of the SEG peeps celebrated hari raya. Met aidil at yishun, he drove me and his gf to sch to pick up hani then to amk to pick up afifah. The first house we went was Yazid's so met the boys under Yazid's block and went up together. After Yazid's house, we went to Afifah's. I decided to follow Fad, Farris, Wan and Yazid cos Fad's car is more roomy :D It was fun, first time i laugh a lot in days. I need that :) Then Fad opened Final Destination 4 in his car. gosh i can't take all the gore! eeergh.

okay, the next house was mine, then Hani's then Aidil's then Fad's and lastly was Wan's. yeah, his house was the last one because he lived at pasir ris XD it was all good fun and i had an awesome time. Went home at 1130, aidil sent me of course.

♥

Fad's car :)

heheh :)

The ladies :)

so i hope the pictures say alot of things to you. i don't wanna elaborate, but i felt like that was one of the best days i was suppose to have :)

And i can't seem to stop this smile from appearing whenever i see his smile :) shhhh.

So who's your new love interest? You sound happy. That's good :)))

2010-09-24T09:42:00.003+08:00

CODY SIMPSON! ♥♥

Ask me anything

are you a virgin?

2010-09-24T09:42:00.001+08:00

That's for me to know and for you to never find out ;)

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Why don't you follow people back on twitter, you'd have more fun.

2010-09-23T08:24:00.001+08:00

I follow mostly quotes. Some other people i follow back are those who are sorta quite close to me in twitter. But i will consider if the twitter account has good stuff, then i'll follow :)

Ask me anything

What do you want?

2010-09-20T12:09:00.001+08:00

For CODY Simpson to follow me on twitter :)

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holy cows, its you??? again?

2010-09-18T16:48:00.001+08:00

hmm ?

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7 things.

2010-09-17T14:36:00.002+08:00

SEVEN THINGS!

7 things that scares you :

God
Devils
Insects
Snakes
Piranha's
Anything that can bite me.
Anything that can hurt me.

7 things you like most :

Chocolate
Ice cream
Caramel Frappe
Movies
Music
Beaches
Love

7 important things in your room :

My childhood plushie
Wallet + money
Laptop
Handphone
Guitar
Bed
Camera

7 random facts about you :

I love twitter.
I love slacking at home.
I hate chilli.
I forgot how is it feel to be in love.
I want to be known for something someday.
I hate studying.
I like to be left alone sometimes.

7 things you plan to do before you die :

Meet my favourite celebs.
Fall in love.
Have a family.
Make my parents happy.
Travel the world.
Make lots of money.
Make my own music.

7 things you can do :

Play bowling.
Make a "W" with my tongue.
Be on my laptop for long hours.
Write songs.
Cry alot.
Give advice.
Be a friend.

7 things you can't do :

Sing.
Dance.
Play piano.
Meet Taylor Lautner :(
Cartwheels.
Drive.
Control my emotions.

7 things that attract you to the opposite sex :

Eyes.
Smile.
Sense of humor.
His personality.
Ability to handle kids.
Knows how to make me blush.
Knows how to love me.

7 things you say most :

Whatever.
LOL.
Nothing.
Omg.
Twitter.
Duh.
Ya, okay.

7 celebrity crushes :

TAYLOR LAUTNER
Nick Jonas
Cody Simpson
Justin Bieber
Sterling Knight
Jason Dolley
Matthew Underwood

RAYA 2010 part 2

2010-09-17T11:32:00.004+08:00

second part of Raya is the day itself i guess. Morning cannot wake up XD when i eventually did, i put on my kebaya and get prepared. make-up, hair and accessories. Somehow, i feel fat that day XD okay, so before we went of to my grandma's house, we seeked forgiveness from my parents. i told myself not to cry but i cried -.- yeah and my little sister had to announce it to everyone -.-

So when we got to my grandma house, some of my relatives were there already. Ate the awesome food prepared, i love it so muchhhh ♥ and of course, the camwhoring session beginsssssss :D lols my guy cousins like love camwhoring also lei. funny max! and since my DSLR have this function where it can snap like 10 times in a row, there were a lot of pictures taken. I posted it on FB but i'm not gonna post all of them here. i have the most Awesome cousins :D

My face a bit not nice lei :/

Family pic :)

Fatty me :(

POSE! :)

yeah, then we went to my grandma's brother's house as usual. after that me and my family went to my dad's brother's house. FYI, my dad is number 13th of 15 in his family. And i'm considered a grandma because my cousin from my dad side has grankids. So... wow, i'm young XD

okay, then the weekends were spent by visiting more of my dad's siblings. but i'm still a bit sad my aunts keep asking if i'm in secondary 3 or 4. IM IN POLY!!! D: lols, sian max. kay that's all i guess.

BYE.

RAYA 2010 part 1

2010-09-17T11:22:00.002+08:00

okay, for this part one i will be writing about what happen before raya. There's a long long time where i have not been updating so i guess i'll do it now. okay, so i had my pay like on the 7th of September. My FIRST pay so i was very excited to spend it. And boy, did i spend it!

Cut my hair + wash + hair treatment = $86
Accessories (bracelet + scarf + earrings) @ HELEN = $50++
Shoes @ Charles and Keith = $30

okay, i think i spend a few more $$ on something else but i kinda forgot. Anw, my hair's like short and i really hate my fringe :(

At what age do u plan to marry? - Random qn, Random ppl being asked. If u sensative abt marriage, sori.

2010-09-16T23:29:00.001+08:00

LOL. I'm not too sure yet, didn't really think about it. But i guess it'll be around 25 or 26 ? Depends if i can find my soulmate first XD

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Day 8, 9 and 10

2010-09-09T06:09:00.002+08:00

Day 8 : 10 of my favourite songs.

1. Tell me why - Taylor Swift

2. Stay - Miley Cyrus

3. What you mean to me - Sterling Knight

4. The call - Regina Spector

5. I wanna know you - Miley Cyrus

6. Fearless - Taylor Swift

7. Give you my heart - First Lady

8. Impossible - Shontelle

9. Simple song - Miley Cyrus

10. Baby - Justin Bieber

Day 9 : 10 ways to win my heart.

1. Be presentable.

2. Knows how to make me smile.

3. Be a gentleman.

4. Show concern.

5. Good with kids.

6. Be funny.

7. Don't be lazy.

8. Don't be whiny.

9. Don't be clingy and irritating.

10. Be you.

Day 10 : Final 10 words.

1. Sorry

2. to

3. everyone

4. whom

5. i

6. might

7. hurt

8. intentionally

9. or

10. not.

Day 7

2010-09-06T17:55:00.002+08:00

Day 7 : 10 Important people

1. Mom

2. Dad

3. Older sis

4. Small sis

5. Other relatives

6. Shari

7. Taylor Lautner

8. Him

9. Other girls

10. Other guys.

do you think it's okay if i call him at msn .i'm his ex-gf after all . will that makes me look like i'm still badly in love with him ?

2010-09-06T00:31:00.001+08:00

Well, you can still talk to him if you want. But if he's not interested than i'm just scared you'll get hurt again. What i did when i broke up with someone is to really just get away from him. If he loves you or still show some feelings, he'll be back. He'll be the one who make the effort to text or talk to you.

If you really badly need him, then i suggest another alternative. i've tried this before but i don't know if it works for you. Try dropping hints. Like your msn status saying stuff like "I wish it could have been different" or "Is it really over?" something like that. Tell me how it goes if you wanna try.

hope this helps! :)

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do you have any idea of how to heal a broken heart ? just asking for advise. anw your tweets and blog are awesome .:)

2010-09-05T18:37:00.001+08:00

Thanks <3 well for me, time heals a broken heart. You just have to forget the pain and the hurt and spend more time being with friends and your family. get busy. you'll see that you can live without him/her before and you can definitely live without him/her now.

Smile, because when you least expected it, someone else will come into your life and make you realise why it never works out with anyone else. Be strong. There's more to life than you can see. So don't dwell on what happened before, move on to see what will happen next. And whoever who lets you go, doesn't deserve you.

I hope this helps :)

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Day 6

2010-09-05T17:28:00.001+08:00

Day 6 : 10 items I can't live without.

1. Handphone

2. Laptop.

3. Wallet + money.

4. Childhood plushie.

5. Diary.

6. Television.

7. Twitter.

8. Blog.

9. Caramel Frappe.

10. Favorite food ? XD

Hi! do u have www.asк.fm account? it looks like a new sensation after formspring. everybody talking about it. :)

2010-09-04T22:41:00.001+08:00

ouh is it now ? well, it doesn't hurt trying! :D

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DAY 5

2010-09-04T12:19:00.003+08:00

Day 5 : 10 wishes.

1. That my family and friends will always be healthy and safe.

2. That i meant something to someone.

3. That my friends wouldn't stop being awesome.

4. That i could meet Taylor Lautner.

5. That i have a lot of money.

6. That http://twitter.com/LoveDoesMatter will get more followers.

7. That i could travel the world.

8. That MileyC, TaylorS, JonasBro or JustinB will come to Singapore.

9. That i was prettier, smarter and funnier.

10. That i have more wishes ;)

ITS ALL ABOUT NICK ♥

2010-09-04T00:22:00.003+08:00

okayy, i've been on twitter now, like on friday night. which is now. I really love my new acct : http://twitter.com/LoveDoesMatter cos i get to meet a whole lot of other people from all over the world, and i followed celebs like NICK JONAS ♥ so today, he went on to this usstream thing. he was on video, LIVE! i had shots of him, he's really awesome. and the fans there was very loud. Even tho it's just on video, i felt like as if i was there somehow. Truly fantastic.

Look at the last picture i got, isn't he superbly CUTE ? *faints* someday, when i've grown up and if i have the money and the time, i will go around the world to meet the people who i idolised right now ♥

DAY 4

2010-09-03T19:42:00.002+08:00

Day 4 : 10 things i want to say to one person.

TAYLOR LAUTNER

1. I LOVE YOU.

2. I'M INTO YOU.

3. You're hot.

4. Someday i want to meet you.

5. You're an awesome actor.

6. You're my wolf ♥

7. Keep being you.

8. You're like my dp for twitter.

9. You're gorgeous~

10. I really REALLY wanna meet you someday.

♥

Day 3

2010-09-02T22:14:00.002+08:00

Day 3 : 10 things I hate.

1. Chili

2. Insects.

3. Lizards.

4. Snakes.

5. Separation.

6. Goodbyes.

7. Arguments.

8. Sad endings.

9. Being bored.

10. Backstabbers/Liars/Bastards/Players/Betrayers/Fakes.

Day 2

2010-09-01T13:35:00.002+08:00

Day 2: 10 things you love

1. GOD

2. Religion

3. My family

4. My friends

5. Taylor Lautner

6. Miley Cyrus / Taylor Swift

7. Twitter : http://twitter.com/LoveDoesMatter :D

8. My house

9. My phone

10. My laptop

Day 1

2010-08-31T22:53:00.002+08:00

Day 1 : 10 things about me.

1. I love to hear love songs.

2. I love Taylor Lautner ♥

3. I somehow love sports.

4. I am shy around new people but once you know me, you'll see me differently.

5. I love to camwhore, even tho i don't look nice.

6. I love fast food and junk food.

7. I love watching movies.

8. I love twitter : http://twitter.com/LoveDoesMatter (visit please)

9. I have a tumblr : http://loveneverleaves.tumblr.com/ (visit please)

10. Ask me a question about what else you wanna know : http://www.formspring.me/Syaf03 . i'll answer and put it on my blog :)

new have to do.

2010-08-31T22:50:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm gonna do these for the next 10 days.

Day 1: 10 things about you
Day 2: 10 things you love
Day 3: 10 things you hate
Day 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
Day 5: 10 wishes
Day 6: 10 items you can’t live without
Day 7: 10 important people
Day 8: 10 of your favorite songs
Day 9: 10 ways to win your heart
Day 10: Final 10 words.

This is for everyone.

2010-08-29T13:37:00.003+08:00

This is for the girls and guys who seem to always get in trouble, always have a hard time in school, or at home. This is for those who are tired of everything thats happening to them and for those who feel trap in a never ending hardship. I'm talking about those who have a place to call home, an education, and have people whom u call friends and family.

When you think life is very bad, think again. There are thousands out there who wants to take your place. Thousands who do not have shelter, food and water. Thousands who wished they had a family to love and who loves them. Thousands who are dying because of serious illnesses. Thousands who would do anything to be alive.

And yet, when life is down, when life brings you unfairness and pain, you want to give up on it ? You are given this chance to live your life, a chance to be whoever you want to be. All i'm saying is that when life hits you, hit it back harder. Fight for your rights, and believe that everything is going to turn out well. God will never give you obstacles in life that is beyond your abilities. Whatever you are going through, you can get over it. Problems are temporary if you are willing to find the solutions. Its always has been, only you don't realise it. Its time you think, are you willing to do anything to get your life back in order ?

I admit, i too have ups and downs. I'm just human. And i'm here, i'm alive, and i'm happy because i'm still alive. Able to make difference, able to show the world what i can do. And the most inportantly, able to love all the people who have stuck by me. I may not have the perfect life, no one has. But i'm blessed to have everyone who loves me, by my side.

Prove to yourself that you can go through life. Even if with tears and getting hurt along the way, you tried your best. There's always a pot of gold at the end of any rainbow. Build your rainbow, because at the end of it, you'll see that life is beautiful, that life will always love you if you love life. Don't give up on it. Don't stay depressed or sad over what had happen to you. Wipe your tears, start doing something to change situations to make them better. And remember, no one goes through life alone. There's always someone out there who loves you and will support you til the very end.

blog is a little dead.

2010-08-28T13:53:00.005+08:00

yes, i've been neglecting my blog. ever since i have

kept me busy most of the time! sorrryyyy! ouh feel free to follow me on my twitter acct. @LoveDoesMatter. need followers! FOLLOW FOLLOW if you have a twitter acct! Do it! XD

this is one of the chats i've been on recently. it's just awesome. getting to meet new people and they're big fans of Justin Bieber. funny max, they know just what to say :)

How come you never ask me what am I doing now? Is it because you don't care?

2010-08-27T22:26:00.001+08:00

Erm i've been out of touch with friends this fasting season. I don't know why, but i guess i was trying to get some "me" time. i guess that was selfish, but i really wanna clear my mind off things and you know, just chillax.

Ask me anything

would you go on a date with a guy who are just friends with you?

2010-08-27T17:55:00.001+08:00

hmm. Well it depends on the guy himself. If i feel comfortable with him then its a yes. But if it doesn't feel right, i guess its a no.

Ask me anything

your blog is awesome! :)

2010-08-23T13:51:00.001+08:00

Thank you so much :D

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How come you never text me first? It feels like I'm always bothering you.

2010-08-20T23:49:00.001+08:00

erm who are you in the first place ? XD

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you work part time as what? O_O

2010-08-20T23:06:00.001+08:00

stock-taking :D

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Found out your BF is GAY what will you do?

2010-08-17T22:48:00.001+08:00

erm. break up ? like seriously, why would a guy date a girl when he's gay ? and why should i date a gay dude ? i mean he's not interested in me ? oooookayy..

Ask me anything

whataday!

2010-08-17T22:05:00.003+08:00

okay, i'm home. and bored? + tired. today, early in the morning, woke up and sent my mom to work. tgt with sis and dad. after that park one corner dno waiting for what, fell asleep in the car. woke up, sweating so much D: then went suntec. dad go do sth, me and sis went to New Look. love that shop! maxi dresses ftw! i want i want i want!! but super exxxx D: ouh and sis bought me a sweeeeeeet necklace ♥ walk walk then off we went to Amara ? for sis medical checkup. waited there for an hour or less ?

then we went to iluma. dad suddenly wanted to watch a movie so we watch airbender. LOUSY! here's what i think :

fire nations are cast as indians ? like seriously. in the cartoon, they are chinese. as in Zuko's suppose to have a ponytail in book one!? not spiky curly hair. Jamal from Slumdog Millionaire as Zuko ? no offence, but thats bad casting.
Zuko's uncle is supposed to be FAT. like really. in this movie, he's really skinny and fit -.-
the firelord shouldnt be seen in book one. and this firelord had short curly hair too. watsup with that ?! and the fact that commander zhao actually talks to him ? he's suppose to be in the ship somewhere -.-
the blue spirit's mask shouldnt have hair ? looks like a momok.
Zuko's scar suppose to be bigger an affecting the left eye. He should have burn marks on his face after the explosion.
Fire benders SHOULD be able to fire bend anytime, like out of thin air. they shouldnt need a fire to be there in order to fire bend it -.-
Zuko should bring the avatar to a cave when he kidnaps him. not to some part of the northern water tribe. he should be freezing in that cave. not freezing becos katara froze him in an ice. and Aang's suppose to save him when he fainted, not save him by melting the ice up to Zuko's head.
Katara's should be angry that they dont teach water bending to females. and her master should be her grandma's lover. they did not even mention her necklace :/
Katara and Sokka should be darker skin. i mean, they're too white. seriously.
Aang shud be pronounced as "aang" not "ang". just weird.
Katara should know that she have healing abilities.
Aang should have tried firebending. leading to the point before this.
the Water bending scroll should be from pirates.
Haru should be older ? why is he just a kid ?! and he didnt throw rocks at the soldiers, he earth bend secretly. and to help out someone in danger. thats when the soldiers caught him and threw him to the prison.
and the prison should be on a ship. not somewhere there's land ? or was it on a ship ? cos i cnt really tell -.-
Katara's the one who should be telling them to fight, not Aang.
Aang should be talking to Roku, not the dragon. He should be talking to KOH, i think thats how it spelt, the face-stealing spirit, who will then tell him the moon and water spirit is in danger.
Zuko shouldn't even touch Katara when he took Aang away from him. and Katara should be an expert in water bending, she's a prodigy. and that fight should be more intense. Zuko's too soft-hearted.
The moon spirit should be killed with fire bending. not with a goddamn knife.
Aang should be turning into some fish spirit monster when the fish was killed, saying "It's Not Over" then glowy glowy then poof, spirit monster. he shouldnt be glowing when yuwei alrdy sacrificed herself. and he shouldnt be glowing and making tsunami's and not pushing the fire nation away. the fire nation retreated becos of the stupid wave -.-
princess yuwei should disappear right after she gave her life, and float to the moon.
and they take an awful lot of SLOW movements to bend one thing -.-

seee ? there's a lot i dont like about this movie. 2/10. this is only because Sokka's is being played by Jackson Rathbone ♥ Twilight hottie :)) gahhh. could have done much better, i was very disappointed. haha. i'm such a critic XD but well, i love the series too much :)

this is what i got when we went to the arcade at iluma. alot eh ? the malay guy gave us free credits cos the machine spoilt. he gave like $10 worth of credits ? super nice :) then went to eat at bukit merah. then off home :)

too lazy!

2010-08-16T23:34:00.005+08:00

okayy. haven't been that busy only i have NO IDEA what to blog about. seriously. my life is D.U.L.L. fasting month start alrdy. gonna be the 7th day in 20 mins time. fast eh? i feel different somehow. i cnt explain it but once i figure that out i'll tell you :)

i've been busy tumblr-ing. easy, and so fun. i guess pictures do tell a thousand words :) been waking up late these few days. shiok max! gonna cook mac and cheese for tmr's sahur. yessahh. my family, they've been great. we've seriously are getting closer day by day and i love every bit of it ♥ they're the best! :)

ok erm. nth else here. anything do visit my tumblr. link up there!

Syafiq square ah (>^^)> hugs <(^^<)

2010-08-16T23:34:00.001+08:00

what ??

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What Diploma are you taking?

2010-08-16T12:31:00.001+08:00

Nanotechnology and Material Science.

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Your soo much fun when your not emoing...is there something I can do to stop you from emoing? It breaks my heart to see such a cute gal like you emo.. @.@

2010-08-15T17:43:00.001+08:00

LOLS. well yes, i emo quite a lot. i don't really know why.

how to stop me from emoing? i'm not quite sure. i don't really talk about why i emo in the first place cos well i will get more emo. so i rather pple just let me have my own space to think, and i will get better somehow. oh yes, CHOCOLATES are my best friend when i emo :D

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DO YOU MISS ME!?

2010-08-15T15:00:00.001+08:00

YES! MOST DEFINITELY YES! YES YES YES! gahhh. we must must must go out. next week or sth. i'll work out sth with mom :D

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Who?

2010-08-15T14:59:00.001+08:00

Hafiz.

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Which ex-bf you met?

2010-08-15T14:21:00.001+08:00

my latest one.

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What is that one thing you want to do that is considered a big no-no?

2010-08-15T13:47:00.001+08:00

hmm. i don't really have thatone thing i wanted to do but couldn't. well, the closest is running away with someone to another country ? i've thought about it once. but i don't think i want it afterall XD

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can i be your boyfriend?

2010-08-14T23:54:00.001+08:00

depends on who you are XD but the answer would prolly be a no.

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IF you got money will u go plastic surgery?

2010-08-14T22:47:00.001+08:00

hmmm.. NO. never ever ever. unless it is a NEED. cos this is the face & body that God have given me and i appreciate it always. i don't need any surgery to make me look good cos well, i look just fine the way i am :D

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i need to say sth

2010-08-13T19:52:00.003+08:00

i really need to say sth. sth i've been feeling recently. I AM NOT MYSELF. like seriously. today, i barely ate. i have no appetite and my freaking sickness just got worse. another downfall, i think i'm going crazy. i cant think straight and i keep waking up super late just bcos i can. tsktsk. i'm a lazy bum but well, thats me.

i have this awful feeling in my gut that i cnt get rid of. idk what it is. it feels as if i'm never gonna be happy again. you know, the feeling like as if one of those Dementors in HP came flying by. im never gonna be cheerful again. never gonna see the sun's warmth. never gonna feel loved. never gonna feel ME. i know it sounds rather strange and random, me being all this depressed. but idk why i feel like that. i just do. i keep watching love stories, happy endings. but it just occurred to me that i'm never gonna have one. what should i do now ? what can i possibly do after this ? what am i ? do i belong to someone ? am i worthy enough for anyone ? Questions, questions, questions. No answer.

i hate feeling this way but i cnt help it. no one seems to understand. no one seems to care. STBM. truly.

why don't you dress up nowadays?

2010-08-12T14:10:00.001+08:00

o.o hmmm.. idk who u are to, you know, know what i wear everday. but idk, i feel dressing up is not that important anymore. sure i wanna look good whenever i go out. but to think back, why do i need to look good, when no one really cares ?

so i shall stick to jeans and t-shirts whenever. only on special occasions that i will dress up. like weddings, or when i go out with certain special somebody who deserves seeing me getting all dressed up.

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yog rehearsal

2010-08-12T13:20:00.003+08:00

had a great time yesterday, going for the YOG Rehearsal. thanks to Ethel for the ticket! :) the view is pretty awesome, performance okayy luh. but the one i hate the most is where they call out the names of every country that is involve in this thing. omg need to wait like 30 mins ? *yawns!* It was all good fun, and when it was over, we sorta walked all the way to the helix bridge to idk where to find the place where ethel and yat are suppose to go next week. talked, laughed along the way, must say, yat is very CHEEKY! make me walk like some retard XD

took bus 106 from marina bay sands there cos its too far from the mrt. ethel and her mom went off first. damn cold siahh. i felt really sick. and it doesnt help when yat stopped me from sneezing! i'm still so lghflaxhfljxfmhqla okay! haha. more and more i dropped at douby ghaut to meet daddy. say bye bye and went to find my dad and sis. made my way home. and i fell even more sick.

slept at 1230, woke up at 230 cos i kept sneezing. waited til 4 when everyone is awake to sahur then ate a bit of rice. then i ate running nose, phlegm and flammation medicine. i felt all better then and i slept for 7 more hours without sneezing as much. lucky i didnt drink yat's ice lemon tea. if not he sure kena my sickness today XD

NATIIONAL DAY

2010-08-09T23:16:00.016+08:00

Warning : The following post is super long and pictures-spammed :D

okay, this post is the post that happened on MONDAY aka NATIONAL DAY aka MY SIS'S BIRTHDAY ♥ at 12 midnight, surprisedd her with a birthday cake on her bed XD funneyyhhh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! and just so u know, no matter how annoying u get, no matter how much we fight every other day, i still love you and will always be here for u no matter what :)

In the morning, i had my bowling tournament at Chinese Swimming Club. before that, we went to eat breakfast at Mcd :D played a total of 3 games. my partner was Janel. haha. i was happy cos i played well. first game, 182. second game, 200. third game was the best, 236 ♥ awesome or whaaaaaaat ? haha. i won all the 3 category prizes. Female High Game Series, Female High Game and me and Janel came in second for Doubles ♥ me and Fukuan were the top guy and girl bowler. both of us have 3 medals XD

ouh and i ask my friends to sing my sis a birthday song. the look on her face was priceless! XD and yeah, Jerry's birthday was 2 days before hers and Fukuan's was 1 day after hers XD

okay, so after tournament, we went Changi to eat POPEYES ♥ my sis craves for it so much. hahahaha. and idk why i can eat 3 pieces of chicken! hahaha i must be super hungry after the tournament! XD ouh ouh me and my sis wore maxi dreses tgt :) awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Went to NTUC. daddy tell us we can take anything we want. WOOOO~ i took a big box of almond chocolates and halal marshmellows. the rest of the family took some chocolates also. Daddy so cool that day! :)

Then, we went to the arcade. i treat my sis $30 to play her favorite sweet machine. haha jackpot, she got a minnie mouse stuffed toy. dad topped up another $25 and we got jackpot again. this time i got a Bambi. CUTE-NESS! ♥ play play play, and off we go!

we headed to Marina there to watch the fireworks. a whole lot of pple came alrdy and it was super busy and crowded -.- sandwiched, and was being pushed. thanks pple. and idk why got a lot of banglahs leii. stare me up and down siahh. mom say to hold on to my things carefully. and i did. waited and waited for fireworks, finally it came. feels good to see them in front of me. i feel so.... alive, somehow. aiya idk how explain. but i ♥ it. awesome!

decided to head off to Woodlands, see if there's anything to see XD and yes, we were just in time to see another set of fireworks! near Causeway Point. AwesomeAwesomeAwesome :) and army men in tanks pass us and i waved and screamed like some crazy girl XD idk why uh, bu i feel so Singaporean XD and they waved back!! hahahahaha. funnyyy till idk what to say alrdy! :)

okayy, so that's about it. What happen on that day. gahhhh i'm so lucky to have a loving family! ♥♥

Who do U think is better. Ur friend Shari of yourself? Wad you dislike most about her?

2010-08-09T22:50:00.001+08:00

wow. erm. i don't really compare me and her. we're both different in a gazillian ways, but when it comes to the right stuff, we both know each other so well it feels as if we have no differences at all. just a piece of each other. both of us are better at some things, well everyone is better and some things than others. no one can do everything, right ?

what i dislike about her ? the fact that she can make alot of guys drooooooool! she's like this amazing chick that every guy wants to have. she's funny, gorgeous and way sexy. haha yeaps. that's her flaw. being toooooo beautiful in every possible way :) haha. i'm guess i'm just a little jealous, but who wouldn't be? she's just too fun, and i wanna be more like her! haha. there's really little things to dislike about a charming girl like her. and i'm glad that i have her in my life :D

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after your exams, what will you do during the holidays?

2010-08-09T08:43:00.001+08:00

ouhhh.. haha that's still a long long way to goooooo :D but uh. hmmmmm. i think i'm gonna go to all the places that i wanna go so badly be cnt bcos of some reason, and i'm gonna spend more time with my friends !

wooooooooooo~ holidays ftw!

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Just askking why do you still talk about your exs?

2010-08-08T23:00:00.001+08:00

hmmm. well, my ex-es fills up part of my memories. good and bad. i don't think of them often luh but when pple talk about ex-es i tend to share with them. and when sth happen that sorta relates to an experience with my ex-es i probably will just talk about them. idk, i guess some i take as learning experience, some i will wonder what actually happen to me during that part of time.

and yes, talking about my ex-es made me realise how i develop as a person. how much have changed between then and now.

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updatessssss

2010-08-08T22:06:00.003+08:00

its been hectic. yes, it has. alot have been going on this week. starting monday, sch + work at night. tues, meetings for NDC and SEG CLUB. congrats to Laiyong for being the new President.

so, on Wednesday, it was SEG National Day Celebration!! like awesome only being a part of it. i was kinda not where i was supposed to be ( in the badge making booth ) cos there's alot of pple helping out so i decided to jump from one booth to another, snapping photos and enjoying myself XD Fad's and Nicole's duet of Kenangan Terindah was AWESOME! cute couple XD then i got to go for French test. totally not prepared to make out a passage in french uh -.- whatever, role play, damn nervous XD after that, went back down to NDC and danced the REACH OUT FOR THE SKY song. on stage. with pple watching. LOL. but yeah, doing everything tgt with friends everywhere, its all fun. no matter how humiliating it is, no many how tough it gets going, the company of friends makes it all worthwhile. yes, i love having friends. i love MY friends.

YOG rehearsals from tues to friday. wow thats a whole lot of work to be done :/ but then again, with Shari around, i'll never get bored. she's just too fun. no wonder she has more friends ! haha. i wanna be like her!!! ♥

and yes. yesterday was the day when YOG COMES TO NYP ! :D totally AWESOME! starting off with NYP Heartbeat, MONSTERS ♥ from Taiwan, more performance, and our YOG FLASHMOB!! AWESOME LIKE SHIIT ! totally had fun, watched the celebrities perform, sadly they're all in chinese. so WHATEVER! big deal. i just clapped along to u know, hype up the mood. haha. everyone tired alrdy. ouh and FARIZZZZ sang his song too! aaaaawwwwww he's handsome, no doubt! :D front seat, baby, front seat :D

after all of that was over, its time for, DANCE PARTTTTTYYYYY! second one i've been to, well the first was sec 1 and i didnt dance cos i was too shy to do so. but this time, i told myself, wth, just have fun! and also since i got Shari, i will dance. no shari, no dance :D got to meet alot of new pple! and yes, i dont like that chinese girl. super irritating! bleahh. so dance party, i was super hot in there. was lifted twice against my will and i was dropped twice. on the floor. and it hurts -.- whatever i just kept dancing anyway. haha and there's this guy who keeps dancing behind me. i noticed i kept avoiding him but somehow he was always there XD Shari noticed him too XD but he was cute. gahhhhh shud have just danced with him :) was being seperated from shari alot of times. haha. yes, again, no shari, no dance. i'm serious. haha. well get to take photo with DEAN ♥ he's DEANLICIOUS ♥ haha. no photos just yet. but i damn love my SECOND YEAR IN NYP.

okayy, thats all for now. will update again when i have the timeeee! :D

Can i poke your face?

2010-08-07T08:52:00.001+08:00

nope. no you cannot! definitely a NO-NO. my face ain't for poking :P

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Can I hug you sometime?

2010-08-07T07:57:00.001+08:00

erm not really. you can only hug me either if you are a close girlfriend or my boyfriend.

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What have i been up to ?

2010-07-31T20:23:00.003+08:00

heeee. what have i been doing ? well, can't believe i'm saying this but i was STUDYING! hahaa. funny cos i've never been that hardcore before XD and no i'm not getting married -.- well, keeping myself busy had actually make me recover. well little by little i guess. i'm more happy, i don't think about stupid stuff anymore and i have more time for myself. i am contented and i'm going to be contented from now on.

been watching reruns of airbender thanks to yat. can u help me dwnld some more shows ? XD eh ya. i need a harddisk! D: and i neeeeeeeeeed my perfect long skirt which i couldn't find everytime ): gahhhh. just bought my mom some stuff for the kitchen. she's redecorating the house for the coming festive season. oh goshh, i love it man. so excited!! :D

well yeah, tomoro gonna be a long day at school. i wanna go grab breakfast!!! gahhh wth why am i recently always thinking/eating food ? omgomg. no no no no no no ! tsktsk. upset ? i can't possibly be! gahhhhhhhhhhh. stfu stomach, i just ate.

i'm back :D

2010-07-30T08:35:00.003+08:00

hey, its me. yes IT IS ME. i'm back :D

okayy, what do i mean by that ? well i've been thinking (maybe i should stop that) and i realise that my life have been topsy turvy. well i'm here to make it right. this fasting month, i'm going to change me. change me into becoming a better person. i won't cry so easily, i will try to stand up for myself. i will think twice before acting and i will study during free nights. yes, i'm gonna achieve all of that and hopefully i will.

yes, i've been sick. with the usual sinus + flu + a bit of fever. idk how i survived that by still going to school, but i think i will be more sick when i'm at home and lonely. i've yet to thank my awesome classmates for being there. and just yesterday Jon was trying to make me feel better, but instead i cried XD so sorry u have to see that! and thanks to Naz for buying me those chocolates every other time and get well soon!

it's time i move on. not dwelling on the past nimore. no use. i know she will take care of you and i'm happy with just that. u 2 belong with each other, and i'm sorry if i ever get in your way. stay strong, and good luck with your futures :)

i am happy, contented. cos i have plenty of other things to focus on and right know i don't need a dillema. so bye! yes, you. ure gonna be out of my mind, and be treated just like any other friend, once i get busy with my work. so i'm "warning" you now XD and for the first time, i'm smiling even tho no one made me, cos i know nobody can ever love me more than i love myself. becos i am SYAF ♥

contented ?

2010-07-29T09:21:00.002+08:00

well, since i can't log on at night, i shall blog in school.

hmm where should i start? this week, well its been rough. and at the start, i was gonna be a bitch that i am inside. but then again, i couldn't hurt him no more, so i decided to accept him back to my life. it was not a difficult decision cos well, he's like the closest guy i ever had recently and i couldn't let him go just that easy. crazy start ? yes it is. but i'm glad everything turned out good, and i want and will treasure this special bond of friendship between us :)

tuesday YOG training was idk, AWESOME?! me and Shari ♥ danced with the 3 hottest guys there and it was *floats in the air* XD okok im exaggerating. but it was shiok while it lasted. and can u believe i shared a drink with the cutest one ? :D ups the day, totally ♥

and yesterday, Mcd Flashmob with sweetie was awesome tooo! love it max! :D of course he was there too :D and no, i won't be affected by your freaking mood swings alrdy. i had enough, and right now, i don't need you to bring me down even further. thanks for everything, but if u want to end it here, u can just say so. no need all that attitude. Went to Manhattan with Sweetie ♥ i crave for it leii. since monday. haha. and i finished the fish!! woooo~ had a great great great superbly great time with her, i ♥ her all the more :D

well, today. hmm what can i say ? i've got to start thinking ahead. where do i want to go from here? do i really need someone to make myself feel better ? well, yes, duh. but right now, when everyone doesnt know what i'm going thru, who do i need ? who will be there for me? and who will stay til the end ? fixing me up is dammn tough, but i've been fix plenty of times before with the help of my friends. but now ? can i do it alone ?

this song means alot.

2010-07-27T09:38:00.003+08:00

Taylor Swift, your song kinda is what i'm feeling right now ♥ (the bolded ones)

WhiteHorse

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

[cut]

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

its a new day.

2010-07-27T08:44:00.004+08:00

ok idk what to really say right now. i know one thing is that this cannot go on. i miss you far too much and its killing me slowly, even tho its only been a day that i acted cold to you. no matter how much i wanna forget you, i guess i won't be able to, cos well, ure you. i want you to be happy. i thot i will make you happy if i did step out of ur life.

yes, i'm complicated, always making trouble. but the thing i'm scared of is that i won't be able to hold down my tears and be friends again, being so close to you breaks me, being superly far from u breaks me even more... gahhh why did i fall for you ? why why ?!?! sigh. i know why. cos ure close-to-perfect guy i've ever met, with all your imperfections.

its been tough for me, having relationships that doesnt work out and heartbreaks here and there. i know its a part of life and i have to accept it. but this time. only this time. i really wished it works. did i say that ? i know right, PATHETIC.

i have no appetite whatsoever today. i won't spent a single sent bcos i spent alot yesterday :/ and shiit this sickness. why cn it ever go away ? ergh.

im thinking of what to do now :/

can't seem to get u outta my head :/

2010-07-27T00:23:00.003+08:00

every where i go. everywhere. i see u in my head. tho we spent only a few days tgt, u're all i think about. *slaps face* wake up, stupid.

but really, today at popeye's i see you. when i drank my drink with a straw, i remember how u like to bite it. when we watched movie, i remember how perfect i feel just sitting next to you. when i sat down waiting for the mrt, i remember when u accompanied me to wait for the next few trains cos i'm damn early. when i carry my bag, i remember how we switched bags when mine was heavier. yes, these are all the memories i thot about just today. how issit freaking possible ? don't ask me, ask my heart + mind.

u decided to hold on to her heart, but yet u dont know how much u've crushed mine ever so badly. out of tears.

i'm though. i think ?

2010-07-27T00:19:00.002+08:00

i'm done with this. i've finally decided too. right now, u don't need me anymore. i was just a toy. a child's plaything. i've decided i shall do what i do best in every failed relationship. ignore, avoid and move on. this way i will forget. and yes i want to forget. forget all our plans, forget all our texts and chats. forget everything. i dont wanna feel anything anymore. and thanks to you this will be the final time i will ever fall for someone so much.

i dont blame u, it aint ur fault. i wished i can be like the mom in "the perfect man", able to run away and move to another country after every bad relationship. but i cnt cos i won't have anywhere to go. i want you out of my life, and i want me out of yours. this way i won't disturb and create havoc in your world. you won't have to think even more. you won't have anymore burden. its been my fault. always has been. and i know it. i'm nth but a troublemaker.

this mask i've been trying hard to pull, finally wrecked thru last night. endless nightmares, crying myself to sleep and waking up with puffy eyes. i can hide it all in school, but in my heart, the thunder never stops. i'm blessed to have my awesome friends to make me forget you. it turns out ure like all the other guys i've met. a lesson to be remembered and learnt.

why do this keep happening to me ? i called my brother yesterday, he gave me the comfort i needed. in the middle of the night, when i was weak and broken, he sorta fix me just by talking it out with me. i missed him. last night i needed him ever so badly. he never lets me down. and i wished i will meet someone who never let me down. he's my hero, and he will always be.

thanks for the memories. thanks for bringing me down. thanks for giving my face a tight slap. thanks for waking me up from this dream. thanks for everything.

i saw you, and u smiled. fcking hard for me to not smile back, but i did it. this way, u won't ever come to my shiit of a life ever again. it's a little too impossible to forget u right now.

i need a fcking hug fcking badly.

contented ?

2010-07-26T11:32:00.000+08:00

well, since i can't log on at night, i shall blog in school.

hmm where should i start? this week, well its been rough. and at the start, i was gonna be a bitch that i am inside. but then again, i couldn't hurt him no more, so i decided to accept him back to my life. it was not a difficult decision cos well, he's like the closest guy i ever had recently and i could let him go just that easy. crazy start ? yes it is. but i'm glad everything turned out good, and i want and will treasure this special bond of friendship between us :)

i know what i am

2010-07-25T22:54:00.004+08:00

okay, so things doesnt turn out good. well, i still remember the advice given to me years ago. i think it's by my "brother" ?

"if he breaks ur heart, made u cry, crushes u so easily, wake up, slap yourself. think back, did he made u happy ? is he worth crying for ? did he really meant that much to u ? Quit getting upset over these things, it happens ALL THE TIME. u just have to forget it, u know what u want and what u did to get what u want. don't hate him, just because things doesn't go ur way. life is NEVER fair. if fate doesn't allow you and him to be together, then be it. u can't change fate no matter how badly u want it to. this is tough, but just breathe. u'll find someone else who treasures you more than u treasure him and someone who will fix your broken heart. "

well, yes, he means a lot to me, and he definitely made me happy like idk what. and yes, i cnt bring myself to hate him, cos he's like the only ONE who i tell my deepest secrets to, the one i share everything with. he made me happy just by being there for me, advicing me, cheering me up and for being the original him :) he's one of a kind and i'm glad he entered my life. cos he made me realise so many things that i've been blind to. and he made me trust again. he's the closest thing i had to someone i can depend on everytime and for that, i won't hate u. i thank you. and one more thing. i just want him to be happy. cos if he is happy, i'll be happy wherever i am.

thanks for the advice bro, i still love you :)

Awesome Day :)

2010-07-25T22:08:00.004+08:00

today we went to my cousin's house for doa selamat. it was awesome. the atmosphere, the company and of course, the food :D camwhore a little, and yes i studied there -.- and play XD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ♥

this little cutie pinched my cheeks and told me i was cute ♥

yes. today was oh so much needed :D

gahhhh!

2010-07-24T18:38:00.002+08:00

haizz.. idk what to do now. i don't know how i can explain to u that i still want u to be around. cos since last year, you have been like my best friend. always there to cheer me up, always by my side. and recently, i feel that ure casting away somehow. i barely know u and that hurts. i know i'm selfish, always thinking about me me me, never you. so idk what to do now. i'm lost when a friend like u ain't here. sighhhh.

sighh :/

2010-07-23T09:42:00.002+08:00

i know i suck.

i know i'm a disappointment.

but deep down, i just wished that i meant something to someone.

happy + sad + disappointed

2010-07-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

my life really had me thinking alot. well for starters, my poly life has been fun with YOG trainings and such. bt of course theres always that someone who can ruin ur happy day with ATTITUDE. idk uh. maybe i think too much. but u sorta casting me away makes me feel really hurt and upset. ure one of the pple that can make me feel that i'm at least 10% special. but then, u made things worse and i feel that if our friendship is going to go down this way, then i wanna climb back out quickly. i'm leaving u down there if u decided to cut this tie we have with each other.

ok WTF am i talking about ?! zzzzzzzzz . im half asleep, just got home from competition. well, i feel great after bowling, really makes my anger out. and yes, we beat them. 18-2 :D i hope i can maintain uh. tomoro Collegiate League with the boys :) Daryl's sending me to Ehub and back home ! awesome or whattt :D he say wanna have supper after that. should i ? Ehub damn far leii and for the first time my parents not coming down XD good luck to me~~

okok btw, been spending some time with someone who i feel really gets me. he knows what im going thru and thank you for that :))

i'm through.

2010-07-19T09:08:00.006+08:00

i dont blame u, it aint ur fault. i wished i can be like the mom in "the perfect man" able to run away and move to another country after every bad relationship. but i cnt cos i won't have anywhere to go. i want you out of my life, and i want me out of yours. this way i won't disturb and create havoc in your world. you won't have to think even more. its been my fault. always. and i know it. i'm nth but a troublemaker.

thanks for the memories. thanks for bringing me down. thanks for giving my face a tight slap. thanks for waking me up from this dream. thanks for everything.

i need a fcking hug fcking badly.

baby baby baby ohhh ~

2010-07-19T09:08:00.004+08:00

post dedicated to NAKATA RASHAH ♥ ubber cute baby boy :D not blood related, aunty babysits him and brought him to my granny's house. totally had fun playing with him! :D

my sis feed him to messy!

adorable much ? ♥

my cousins enjoying the camwhore session XD

so when i got home, i decided to chiong study and stayed up until 1 to study. everyone else was asleep and i got this weird creepy feeling uh. idk why so i decided to sleep. even scared to go to my room XD and yes, i remembered Zahil's story during the INMC camp. he live at 2nd story. ME TOO! T.T

i'm at sch now. and guess what ? STUPID QUIZ CANCELLED!_|_ wahliao i really wanna punch the cher leii. grrr. waste my time! :/

what am i finding ?

2010-07-16T23:04:00.004+08:00

For my 400th post, i shall answer a question that my friend ask me.

"What am i looking for in a r/s ? and how will i know he's the one? "

what i look for ?

someone who accepts all of me, good and bad, and who doesnt judge me from my wrongdoings.

someone who shows care and concern even if i don't ask for it or show it.

someone who knows me as well as i know him.

someone who will make an effort to cheer me up when i'm down.

someone who will understand my likes and dislikes.

someone who will support me whenever.

someone who respects my family.

and

someone who loves me truly.

i will know if he's the one :

the moment when we look at each other and my heart just skipped a beat.

when his smile, no matter how crooked, melts me in every direction.

when he's single touch makes my back tingle.

when our eyes made that perfect connection where sparks can be felt.

when i feel comfortable with him whenever we go out.

when i am able to spill my deepest darkest secrets to him and he will understand.

when i feel all blushed/shy whenever he's around.

and

when we both know we're meant to be together :D

new twitter!

2010-07-15T23:18:00.001+08:00

RE-FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER

@syaf003

thanks ♥

tired nehh!

2010-07-15T23:05:00.002+08:00

okay, for this week have been hectic. i keep going home late, sleeping late, waking up damn early and well, not enuff sleep. and today i actually made an effort to come school early for vinayak class, reach yck, got an sms saying it was postponed. like !@#$%^&! don't do this to me uh, i'm like alrdy so tired, u make me wake up early for nth. cnt tell in advance mehh ? ergh. i fell asleep like 15 mins after revising thru some maths. woke up, yh said i snored XD super embarrassing! cos i wasnt able to breathe properly cos some idiotic boys in my class doesnt want to shut the stupid air con. FREEEZINGGGG! D:

lunch, didnt really have appetite to eat, so i just ate tuna puff from cheers :/ oh so very hungry but i forgot to bring more money so i have to really try not to spend anything much. maths quiz was a bummer. didnt see the qn properly. 10 marks gone T.T

went mcd after school, to wait until 6.30. lucky SHARI♥ was there, if not i would be boreddd max! we chatted alot about well GUYS. DUH -.- and a bit about make-up. yes, totally loved it :D Sharizeebest!

so headed off to meeting and finish at 9pm. really late leii lucky daddy came to pick me up ! my body is aching. i feel so restless. but i know why i didnt feel as happy as yesterday. well supposedly "happy". sighh.. i hope i get thru this. but more and more, imy. yes i do.

hidden

2010-07-14T21:56:00.002+08:00

everything is hidden. nobody can force you to show what u hide. i'm full of mysteries. i'm full of surprises. i'm good at one thing tho. i'm good at separating my life at home, my life in school and my life in my head + heart.

p.s : its weird to see ur offline status, to see ur twitter acct completely untouched today.

angry!

2010-07-14T17:27:00.003+08:00

i am super angry at the IDIOT who deactivated my twit acct. no life or what ?! you know u accidentally hack into people's acct just sign out and sign in again uh. is that EFFING DIFFICULT?! u make me go into so much trouble to remake a new hotmail and remake a new twitter acct _|_ to the bastard who did this and i hope all your accts will be hacked and deleted! grrr. THIRD TIME LEII!! NOT FUNNY LO! _|_

follow me again peeps. Syaf003 :/

thinking

2010-07-13T23:37:00.003+08:00

yes i've been thinking. about u. about me. alot. i guess all i think about is my happiness. but not yours. i've messed it so badly and i want that to stop. so now, i wont bother u anymore. i won't text you, i won't chat with you unless you start it first. i'll be the one to close my heart. and i mean really close it. with a lock and key. i'll throw away the key so only my true love will be able to find it and unlock it.

i promise :

- never to fall too deep.

- to admire from afar.

- to understand what are crushes and what is love.

- to never be the one to admit it first.

- not to trust so easily.

i hope i don't break these promises. i will put it on the left hand corner of my blog so i'll never forget it. i will need a red rubber band everyday so if i keep thinking of love again i will snap my wrist. don't care if it hurts, at least it will remind me to forget love and focus more on studies.

yes, i've been a moron. everytime trying to prove myself worthy. but it doesnt work, and i should have just accepted it. i will try my best to keep these promises, cos i want to be stronger than how i am now.

boreddddd

2010-07-12T20:58:00.004+08:00

recently my life is like a roller coaster. going up and down up and down. lols. but i don't mind. at least it gets interesting day by day and not so boring XD the more i look at myself, i feel less and less confident. i feel so fugly, so unfit for anyone's eyes. how i wish i could be like those celebs, so stylish/gorgeous. sigh.

i have a lot of assignments to do. but i don't know what they are XD good huh ? YOG training takes up my night time, SEG meeting + bowling league competitions all over. to top it off i need to study + do housework while waiting for the new maid to come. u might think i'm breaking down with all this but i have my personal inspirations everyday. hehe. thinking of u makes it all possible for me to get thru all these and i thank you for that. and i cnt believe u still can ask whats the reason for ur existence -.- u know how will i feel if somehow u were to go away from me ? T.T

bahh what am i talking about now ? ouh yeahh work. err.. i have nth to say anymore XD ouh ya! the report. supposedly to do after school today but WOW one member didnt come, the other overslept becos of world cup -.- i am not gonna take responsibility for this! bleahh XD

friends wise, AWESOME. been watching fringe with shari during liying lesson. goshh i hope im not addicted to it yet XD but it's very interesting leii. like cool only! love shari max max. sharizeebest! :)

idk what to feel right now

2010-07-11T21:39:00.002+08:00

sometimes unexpected people came into ur life and change it for the better. i was happy that i found someone to fill the empty spaces in my heart but now everything changed since u found out. i should have never told u that. u should never have to know. but u did, and i know the answer alrdy. u made me happy even if u dont know it and that alone is why i like u so much. yes i've fallen. and now i'm tryna find the strenght to get up. u probably will tell me to move on. but i'm contented to stay where i am even if it means i'm not getting back what i want. it's ok. this might be the last time i ever feel anything for anyone so i want to make it last. i've hurt alot of pple and i don't wanna hurt them anymore. yes, i'm stupid, i'm a loser. but i don't care. treat me whatever way u want, cos i won't budge with my decision.

so blegh.

cravingggggggs!

2010-07-10T18:09:00.002+08:00

CARVINGS CRAVINGS!

- movies !

- cadbury milk chocolateeee

- magnum almonddddd

- gold rush icecream @ swensens!

- chocolate fondueeeee

and i definitely crave for someone to pamper me, to hold me, to cuddle with me and someone for me to love :'(

immaloser.

i need shopping time badly D:

2010-07-10T16:27:00.003+08:00

here are some of the things i wanna buy but couldn't :

1. a new guitar + capo

2. new sandals ( since my sis spoilt mine )

3. clothes!

yes, i needa spend stuff to make me feel better :/ and this week alone i've drank coffee for 4 days. tsktsk. i'm gonna feel so restless soon! :( bahhh i hate being at home. i've got nth to do and i'm duper bored. and there's a higher chances of me fighting with someone at home and getting my fragile self to cry even more. haiz. whatalife.

i wish i was stronger.

TGIF!

2010-07-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

WOW this week really flew past. didnt even have time to bloggg D:

so yes, YOG training starts last tuesday and today. it was like REALLY fun to dance as a flashmobbers. S A M B A pple! haha. totally had more fun today then on tuesday all becos of SHARI ♥ she makes everything so fun ! ILOVEYOULUHHS! :D and yes, we are among the 100-200 pple among 4000 others who are chosen for this SAMBA flashmob dance. wooo ! :D

but but, i'm tired :(

hope i can sleep in tonight. and i'm kinda angry i dont have time to go out with friends for leisure cos mom's cranky and everything. my sis gets to shop and freaking rub it on my face! ERGEHRGWLHFJDMLXFHSAH! bahhh whatever luh. im just freaking thankful i can go to school and enjoy the company of my awesome friends :D

SMU Doubles.

2010-07-03T16:41:00.003+08:00

today's competition was bleaggghhh. it started out okayy luh. i teamed with Thomas. and we were playing with guys who has averages more than 200. so we were like damn stress. my first 3 scores were 172, 158 and 228. i was really pleased. until it came to my last game. 131!! LIKE WTF! 4 SPLITS 5/6 OPEN FRAMES! i could just kill myself. seriously. from 12th position we dropped to 20th position. dam good right! -.-

but slight good news is that we are the top for NYP. as if that's any good. sighh. screw my last game!

i'm depressed.

KAY BYE :'(

CAMWHORE-YY

2010-07-02T21:21:00.004+08:00

i realised i have a lot of pics that wasn't yet posted. lols. my pics are fugly i know, but ohwell, i have NO problems with what i am right now, cos i appreciate everything god have given me :) i may not look the best, well i also dont feel the best, but at least i'm ME ME ME ME. and nobody can be a better ME than ME. so bleahh :p

cuddle cuddle! :D

loves her!

mangomangomango :D

tomoro i will be having SMU competition at Safra Mount Faber. partner for it is Thomas :) hope we can chiong tomoro and win something for NYP! wish me luck ! :D

listening to : STERLING KNIGHT ♥♥, what you mean to me ♥